February 2012
9 posts
It’s not everyday that you get good opportunities to make something amazing happen. Circumstances won’t always line up accordingly and chances are you will fail over and over. There’s no reason you shouldn’t work hard at anything you do. If you’re going to do something, give it your all 100% or why bother. Losing can be one step back, but effort can be two steps...
I have all my posts and drafts from my old tumblr saved onto my laptop. I feel like organizing them and putting them into a small book of short written thoughts. It’d just be nice to have a physical printed copy of everything I’ve been through and what made me who I am today..
It’s sad, you know. Growing up. Your whole life up until now, you’ve been so distracted, worrying about the wrong things. You used to throw a fit when you didn’t get the toy you wanted. Then you grew up a little. You used to ask your parents for money to buy clothes. Then you grew up a little. You were the angriest kid in the world when they wouldn’t let you out at night....
It’d be nice to climb the sides or the backs of a multi-storied building after midnight and dangle my legs off the edge of the roof. Just sitting there in the cold watching the cars stroll by and the street lights flicker. Just forget about the problems and doze off into the city lights. A nice cold beer or some shitty ass fast food would be perfect. Even some company provided with a deep...
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Happiness is something so simple, but people just make it so complicated. Learn that all emotions are temporary. That an emotional reaction only lasts for so long until it becomes self-inflicted. That you can only be so sad until a point where you’re just hurting yourself. If you want to be happy, you have to be control of your feelings. When you become too dependent on someone else for...
She’s coffee at seven after-midnight. With her dark brown cocoa eyes, cream coloured skin, and a sugar packeted personality along with a twist. She’s nothing more than a cup full of steamy endorphins waiting to burn your tongue. She’s the newspaper you pick up on the way to work. Her stories, her words, her eloquent voice is all you want to inhale. She’s nothing more than...
January 2012
26 posts
She is not your sunshine, she is not your moon. She’s nothing more than your eclipse. She will be gone within a blink of an eye; she will be not be back tomorrow, nor the day after. Run outside excitedly like a kid hearing the ice cream truck. Greet her with your deep blue eyes and your pearly white smile. Look her in her eyes and tell her she’s beautiful. Appreciate the time...
I know times get hard. I know sometimes you look around and feel alone. That the warmth of your jacket isn’t the warmth you weren’t ever looking for. That your frostbitten fingers will make you feel like you’ve lost touch with everyone around you, including yourself. Your pockets wont do you justice. Take your precious hands and hold mine. Life will go on and depression is just a...
I’m not so much of a person who likes settling down and getting attached to things. I don’t see myself living in one place for the rest of my life. I like traveling. I like trying new things and learning about different cultures. I’m okay with repetitive things, and doing things more than once. But if I had the opportunity to try something new, I would take it. Sure, I’ll...
It’s crazy how we have this whole world twisted. How the crazy, mentally ill, people have more of a grasp of reality than us people who are supposed to be completely sane. The fact that we can think straight acts more of a barrier into progressing, making our thoughts and more importantly our actions, insane beyond belief. It’s sad how we’re so blind. It’s sad that the...
What’s worse than not having a significant other is not having a best friend. Knowing you have no one to turn to when you need someone the most. Sure, other friends can always be there, but they don’t bring you to that comfort level for which you’d even want to run to them and open up. Normal friends are always missing that something. Your best friend is the reassuring feeling...
How do you go on to tell your very own mother that you want to permanently move away from home. That it’s finally time to grow up and start living your own life somewhere else. That you’re better off somewhere remotely far away from her physically. The only woman in your life who loved you and will forever love you through thick and thin. That her baby needs to fulfill...
It’d be really cute to have your significant other pick you up at the airport from a trip or a visit. Even picking you up after a long day at school or work is noteworthy. It’s just those little things where you’d be so physically and emotionally exhausted that seeing them will completely turn your mood around. It’s one of those things that’ll make you completely...
So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really...
It’d be really nice to meet someone with an honest, simple, & straight-forward mindset. Growing up playing games, chasing after one another is always fun. But it’s always fun and games until someone gets hurt. Once you’re broken down to a certain point, you don’t have anymore time to deal with the bullshit. It just seems so much more practical to be straight-forward...
I don’t need a relationship, I need a friendship. A friendship that’ll change my life. Feelings are messy and all I’d really want is a friend who will never leave. Someone who I can just be myself around, not worrying whether or not my actions will be judged upon and is a deciding factor if they’d like me back or not. A friendship that’s so close and tight that people...
Some homeless guy on the side of the road at the stop light told Huong to turn her headlights on. I usually don’t give change to the needy unless they truly deserve it. But a small simple gesture as that showed a bit of kindness. The light was yellow and I told her to stop and miss it so I could run out and give him a dollar I made at work. For all I know, he could have saved my life and a...
I like having stupid friends. I’m sure stupid isn’t even the correct word for it, but you’ll catch my drift. It’s nice surrounding yourself with people who don’t always care about the consequences and fill themselves with worry. People who are more likely to be spontaneous and genuinely outgoing. The rebellious daredevils who like blowing shit up, who like...
I hate missing someone who you know you shouldn’t miss at all. It sucks when they’re physically gone, but their presence still lingers. When everything reminds you of them, especially when you least expect it or when you think you’ve finally got them out of your mind. It’s as if someone is in your mind, playing with your feelings for their own entertainment. It’s sad...
Good Morning Sunshine, we need to talk. There is a reason you’re the sun and not the world. You brighten my days and fill them with life. Even though we’ve had our cloudy days, I know you were always out there, somewhere. I appreciate everything you’ve done for me and the warmth you’ve provided. This isn’t goodbye. It doesn’t have to hurt. Sunsets can be...
The more people who hurt me, the more I don’t give a fuck about anything. It’s sad because there will eventually be someone who’s worth it but I’ll have nothing left to give.
At least once in your life, you will wonder and question what the meaning or purpose is in general or of your own life. The way my life has been going, I feel as if my purpose is to make other people happy and their lives easier. Nothing brings better happiness to myself than taking care of loved ones and the people who surround me. I don’t mind if people come and go as long as my time in...
chellemaah:
When people get into relationships, right off the bat they believe that things will always be as fresh as the moment they fell for each other. And with that in mind, people fear what’s subsequent to that honeymoon stage because they’re afraid once shit hits the fan—That’s it. Nothing can be done to scour what’s remaining of a relationship. But love can be expressed not just during...
December 2011
23 posts
Drown, Baby, Drown.
He found himself in the middle of a vast ocean of tears. In all three-sixty degrees, there was no sight of help. The more he fought to keep his head above water, the more energy he drained within himself. Relapsing into silence as the eye drops of depression filled his lungs. Let go. Don’t fight it. Let the current carry you into the state of tranquillity. Let it consume...
If there’s one thing I’ve learned this year, it’s that pain is tolerable. That no matter how many tears you shed, it’ll never be enough to fill your lungs and kill you. Even if you do stop breathing, that pain will disappear as well and in the end, you’ll always be okay. Therefore, no matter how much pain you maybe going through, it should never be enough to risk your...
Preaching To The Choir.
The sad truth is that our opinions and advice are often heard by the people who don’t need it. The one’s who are willing to listen are often the ones who are open minded and respectful. It’s those who don’t read, who don’t listen, whom are unwilling to honor the value in another’s gratuity. Stubbornness will kill you as you will not...
Everyone, especially teenagers need to stop trying so hard to be different, to be cool, to be trendy. Just be honest with yourself. Half the time you’re following others just to fit in. The other half you’re trying to set trends that don’t even represent who you really are. Yeah, it’s an amazing feeling getting attention and being popular. But it’s all that much...
Often times we’re better, emotionally, than we think we are. When something as simple as a loss of death or a relationship that has come to an end, we automatically pity ourselves and build our own pessimistic mood without even realizing it. One loss, big or small, life will go on. There are other things to worry about and to be thankful for. For the most part, we are in control of our...
Work Stories #1 12/12/11
So today a big African-American male about 220 lbs, 6’2”, came into the store today and wanted to pay for a few pairs of shoes for his baby mama. He brought up a total of 6 pairs of shoes to the counter. My co worker, this Vietnamese/African-American girl, started to ring him up and he said this, “Can I tell you that you look beautiful without flirting?” That is probably...
So I had this dream...
Where I was headed to @minasouk’s house on the top of the mountains. The only way to get there was to walk on the side of the cliffs with 1000+ ft. drops. It was a 4 foot wide pathway with guardrails on each side which was supposed to make it a little less scary but it wasn’t. It wasn’t because @m1ko was pushing me up the mountain in a shopping cart, running at full blast,...
I can't promise I'll catch you if you fall, but I...
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dannyhiga:
When a person finally finds someone worth hanging onto, they’d want to do anything to keep them close. Sometimes it’s not the fact that you genuinely enjoy talking to that person, but you’d always want to talk to them so you wont end up drifting further and further with each passing day. You wouldn’t want to lose their interest and them finding someone better and more exciting than...
My mind will forever be a complacent library of thoughts scattered in an incoherent manner. Historic memories, fictional feelings, and journalistic thoughts are sealed with dust as they sit on the top shelves never to be deciphered. The cold reality is that something too hard to understand will gain nearly any human interest as it is not worth it. Struggle is never appealing. Only a doctor can...
sometimes the thought of suicide feels so right.
jonathanpham:
Education doesn’t necessarily make you smarter. Intelligence is a concept of relativity, and the standards we compare them to have changed over time—divided into separate categories more than anything.
Sure, you’re at a prestigious school that teaches you how to analyze famous literary works, the art of rhetoric, societal ethics, etc. Your professors have passed on their knowledge...